I was raised jw. My mom died when I was 7. I was never allowed to grieve her death, because I would see her again soon. Plus my father thought it was a sign of weakness. My dad remarried, a total witch jw. Made my life a living hell on top of religion. Funny cause as soon as my dad past she left jw. My dad was an elder for a long time. Both my brothers and myself were DF'd. At different times. He stepped down. My DF was over sex. The elders didnt think I was repentant enough because I did go into graphic detail of all the sex acts fast enough. Honestly I don't think some of them couldn't make it to there car fast enough to jack off. I did the right thing and got reinstated then never went back. I'm done with religion.