Hi everyone. My name is Danmera Dinglebum. Not my real name, altho I would love it if it were, so fun. I am a new awakee, relatively speaking, woke up the summer time of 2011.
My story, long story short. I was basically raised in the "trooof". My mother joined when I was a toddler, and married a 2nd generation when I was 5. I consider myself a 3rd generation, since I had a JW grandmother, and my natural grandparents were basically strangers, being worldly and all. Most of my family is still in. Mom, step dad, sister, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc etc etc. I have one brother who was thinking of going back but managed to talk him out of it, so far. Basically, it was all I knew.
I got married at a young age, as many of us do, to a brother, who shortly after the wedding I found out he had a drug and alcohol problem and that he liked to hit. 5 years later, I left him. Doing so, I lost everyone. No scriptural reason to leave, and I showed brazen conduct to the elders by refusing their counsel of "suck it up and take it". Shun city. Everyone, family, friends, etc, you know how that goes.
So I left the "religion". But I always believed. Knew I was going to go back one day. They were "trooof" after all. Fast forward 20 years, meeting here, memorial there, etc., still a big time defender of the faith, bla bla, still believed. Believed Totally. Mom calls me, out of the blue, so I get excited, started to think about returning. I met up with a local sister, and we started to talk about things. I honestly think, what saved me, was not getting into the literature. I already knew the teachings, I just had a few things that needed clearing up.
She wasn't able to answer from the bible alone, and really pushed the literature, kind of gave me the creeps, even I wasn't ready to admit that to myself just yet. I took to looking on line, and stumbled into one mother of an onion. House of cards fell. Turned my life upside down for a while. Anyway, chat with an elder, a CO, and a few more chats with her, and I was done. I told her I would be speaking out, and would never follow these men.
Been speaking out ever since. Forums and videos.
You can hear more of my story on youtube, username Danmera
I am on FB as Danmera Dinglebum
I am on forums as blond-moment (or variations thereof)